Hi, my Love ~
I hope you’re comfortable as you read this letter. I’m not sure what time it is where you are, but I think it might be a good idea for you to look through this at night, perhaps before you go to bed, so that you can really think about what I’m about to say. Our relationship has been going well. I am thoroughly enjoying our letters to each other, but last night I had a dream that, in my mind, urges me into a new space with you. You can also stop reading this right now if you like, because I’m going to be telling you something deeply sensual, and even sexual as well. If I’m going too far, please stop me and tell me to back-off. I will respect your wishes. Last night, in my dream, we were on a boat floating around some island in the middle of nowhere. It looked a little like one of the Thai islands; crystal-blue water, white sands, and the weather was warm, which kept both of us in our swimsuits. We decided we’d had enough of floating around, looking into the waters to the white sands below. Of course, there were loads of brightly-colored fish and all sorts of things to look at, but we wanted to lie down a bit and catch some sun; perhaps even close our eyes for a moment. We pulled our little red boat to the shore, then lay down under a palm tree on the sand. I placed my hand on your belly, as I lay on my stomach and you lay on your back. We closed our eyes for a minute then opened them to smile at each other. But, this time, as we looked at each other, we could not look away. I’m not sure if it was the warmth from the sand and the sun, or if it was the beauty we were surrounded by, but I began to move my hand up toward your breast. You took my hand and placed it on your face then said, “Come closer.” I did. I moved in closer to you, until our mouths were just centimeters apart. Before this we had never been intimate, much like we are now. All I wanted to do was kiss you. And so, I moved closer still until my lips touched yours. You closed your eyes and allowed me to leave my lips on yours, until the warmth that surrounded us began to grow inside of us as well. You lifted your hand and stroked my hair, then ran it over my shoulder and down my back. It felt – it felt so beautiful. Without a second thought I moved over you, and before we could say just one word, we began making love on the sand. It did not take long at all, but it felt like a lifetime. I held you afterwards; leaned over onto my back with you resting your body on mine, and we lay like that for about a half-hour. We never said anything, because the feelings we’d wanted to express all this time were finally out in the open. By the time we needed to get the boat back across the water, and to our house on the other side, we were so close that it was as though we were made of the same body. That night, we made dinner together, talking only softly when we wanted to, but the friendship was stronger; the bond was stronger than I had ever felt before. So, I woke-up with this feeling of warmth this morning (in real life), all because of my dream. Perhaps it sounds like something out of a movie, but even if it is I’d want to paly the role of me in it! And I’d only want you to be you. Is it too early to be having dreams like this about you? Am I treading on thin-ice, or breaking a friendship for feelings of intimacy that shouldn’t come so soon? I’ll understand if what I’ve said sounds a little weird, or might even offend you. I have no intention of overstepping the boundaries, if there are any place. But I would always want our relationship to include open communication, and if I try to hide this feeling from you, I think I’m only going to end-up a nervous wreck. So, yeah, that was my dream. It’s made me feel real good this morning – real good. But I do need your approval to think of you this way. I need to know if you’ve ever had a similar thought, or even a dream about me. I want you to know that you can think of me in this way; that you can tell me whatever it is you’re feeling. If I’m moving too fast, as I said just tell me to back-up. Those feelings can wait, if you want them to. If you don’t ever think our relationship could move into that, tell me this also – otherwise I might spend the next few weeks trying to hide what I truly feel, only to discover you’ve had me in the friend-zone because that’s where I belong. Will you tell me? Will you be honest with me? I think I may be falling in love with you, in a way I’ve not fallen in love with anyone before. This is good for me but also a little scary, because I don’t know how you’ll respond. I feel like a kid in high-school trying to put my arm around you and sneak in a kiss. Will you let me kiss you? Well, I’m going to sign-off on this note for now. If I never hear from you again, I’ll totally understand. If I do, I think I may be one of the happiest men alive. Thinking of you today, but only as my good friend until I hear some kind of confirmation from you that my love-making thoughts are not invasive in any way – I wouldn’t want them to be. Have a beautiful day. Do all you want, knowing that I’m loving you more now than I did at the start, and things can only get better between us with this much love. I look forward to your response, if you choose to respond. Your admirer and ‘hopefully’ future mate.
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